Busted... but not broken...

It's late at night and I can't seem to sleep. I have way too many things going on in my brain. I am about to embark on a heavy endeavor called grad school... it's this heavy endeavor that keeps me level, yet feelings of unpreparedness and lack of confidence consume me. If anyone has ever done anything artistic or even tried something very scary and new they understand the feeling I am going through now. It's like live theatre.... there you are, up on stage, trying desperately to share with the audience the truth of your performance and giving them something dynamic and real... and you are up there and your mind is numb... you are captivated by the staggering power of being on stage and everyone in the world seems to fade.

This same feeling of numbness happens to me when I sin or when I become so consumed with the small that I forget the big. A better way to put this is when I forget about people... the real tangible people and only remember myself.

SO.... I'M BUSTED..... BUT NOT BROKEN....

I'm busted in the sense that something isn't right, like a piece just dangling that needs to be reconnected or a scraped knee or even something as serious as a missing limb... something is gone and needs to be there...

But brokenness denotes something unheard of... a lack of ability... brokenness could even be described as dead. When one is dead they are no longer able to first hand effect the lives of the living.

I'm busted, but not broken, not dead, capable of generating some sort of change, some sort of connection with others that will hopefully bring them to Christ.

But busted isn't something to be proud of, it's something to desire healing from. What is your vice, your situation or addiction or thing that makes you busted? Is it gambling, lying, stealing, drugs, sexual issues, anger, procrastination, or even infatuation in something that most think is healthy???

So, where does healing come from? To become unbusted?

It comes from Christ... from Jesus... from a complete turning back to the master builder...

But we are not becoming refurbished human beings...

We are new creations through Christ... and we will continue to be renewed as we continue to come back to and follow Christ...

We are no longer busted and brokenness no longer exists...

WE ARE SIMPLY WHOLE...

But we are not whole in ourselves, but in Christ who makes us whole by giving us His wholeness and taking on our bustedness (a.k.a. sin).

So... the things that hold us back from doing the scary... like my new endeavor in grad school or your situation X that you are struggling with... those are the things that masks us to the reality that being busted isn't what we're supposed to be... we are made new everyday... if we seek, if we knock, if we come back running to the Father...

God will always run towards us, pick us up and restore us to Him, make us new, just like He made the blind see, the lame walk, and the dead rise up and live...

BUSTED... BUT NOT BROKEN...

Blessings...