That happens to me all the time... I get the "grass is greener" syndrome and then I have to get a reality check and notice that there is so much love and blessings in my own life...
Recently I have been contemplating several different things and seeking after God and sadly my own intuition to try to find out what I should do... When I would give in to my own reasoning, to my own intuition my thought life, the patterns through which my brain processes information would start to notice what I wanted and/or what I didn't have... Yet when I would zero in on God... seeking Him, sometimes desperately (because I want the answers now, not later) and not only read the Bible, pray more, but actually be more obedient in the small things (you know those little things that prick your heart at the moment and you know you should do better or be acting differently... even if you say the right things)... then the beautiful reality of God's direction comes... in His timing and according to His plans... (not my plans... and I have lots of those...)
God answers us when we seek Him... sometimes not in the ways we would hope, sometimes in a whisper or what one could call coincidences... Even Gideon had to lay out the fleece a couple of times... It says in James 1:5-8:
"But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him. But he must ask in faith without any doubting, for the one who doubts is like the surf of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind. For that man ought not to expect that he will receive anything from the Lord, being a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways."
So I pray, asking for generous wisdom, seeking after God. I even pray against my own doubt (doesn't everybody do this?) Sometimes I get a few coincidences that relate to what I'm praying about, some glimpses of God's direction unknowingly given by complete strangers... maybe it's because I am looking for them... but maybe I am actually seeking out the voice of God... His direction is more clear because I am not ignoring Him... or at the very least still living life according to how I perceive it, according to my own understanding, my flawed wisdom... a double-minded wisdom...
A great friend once told me that there are no "coincidences" with God... I think that's true... a sovereign God doesn't govern the universe all "wishy washy" His commands and desires are firm and crafted in unimaginable power...
So when I notice the power that is already working in my life and others... the beautiful masterpiece of creation living and breathing according to His plans my own life seems fresh, because I am active part of this creative story... this "epic novel"
Stop... breathe... take in the refreshing light and wisdom of the Holy Spirit washing over you... notice God working in your life... take great joy in Him...
Seek God with me... life isn't boring when you seek after God... when God resides in you and you live in Him... when you notice Him...
Until next time... love you all...
Sam
