Recently I came across a blog entry from a dear friend who died... the entry was about two years old and had been probably lost in the archives of the internet for some time... The words that he wrote are profound... At the time he wrote the blog, he was enduring great family turmoil and was also trying to navigate graduating from college, getting married, and begin pastoring at a church. The pivotal part of the blog was not his ability to be brutally honest with God and have questions, but that at the end he chose to rely on God not for answers, but for His will to be done, for God to make His move... listen to these words, let the voice of someone you love and trust say them to you, here's my friend "When it comes to struggles like these maybe God was never meant to be figured out or understood but rather trusted in and counted on. Maybe when we struggle we should not look to God for an answer but for a safe place. Maybe when we struggle we don't look to God for the next move but for God to move."
So right now in my life and probably in many of your lives, I am waiting for God to move, to guide, and to establish His Kingdom firmly in the questions of my life and in the depths of my heart. So as this wandering artist moves and breathes through life and as he struggles with his faith and to view God not only as the powerful creator of the universe, but as a comforter and righteous one who will move in ways that I cannot even fathom.
So back to the struggle, the searching and beating of my chest to try to be a person who follows God with a heart of complete and utter obedience while trying to harness the relentlessly driven creative soul that I have trapped inside of me...
All for the Glory of God,
Blessings to you all,
Sam
